its all done

Im running out of time

inside a never ending dream you sold
the clock is ticking
I can see its the end Im not reaching.

I want to feel at home
but home isn't far away from heat
its your face Im missing
the blur gets worst with every heartbeat

and I wonder why the hell Im running?
and why after hours I feel its the same place?
but I still keep on going and going
secretly trying to get out of this egotistic race.

But I wake up
and you aren't near
I can remember your reasons
but I cant accept that the main is fear

If none of this was true
if all you gave me felt empty and left me alone
then what is it I can do?
so that you get the idea that Im doing everything for you.

I have shown all my cards
I have presented all the demons
I paid the cost with all my heart
but I still feel I have to apologize for every tear

Im just not what you want me
to be, to feel, to think
I just cant be what you think is alright
but its my soul now under the spotligh
and your words are shooting all the time.

I hate to say I wouldn't do it all over again
cause I've learnt from my mistakes, its OVER
and sense isn't playing out with logic or with anything
sense is getting the hell far away from all this pain and hate and fear.

Please get out of the radar
try to evolve and exist in a far away land
please don't come to sell me a new way to live or die
cause all I want is everything to grow in me and make me feel alive.

and all what's missing is everything you didn't pay
and every cost you avoided sended me to hell
Im done delivering payments for every wrong you did
let me call off your duties, Im asking you to set me free