We'll be the worst of best friends

It is cool to fear somentimes
but as you waste all this time running
the remaining ashes tend to disappear somehow

and you leave your true self on the dinning table
most days Im missing you
but you dont want to hear about that

and you get paranoid
and you waste away inside
and you get stuck on the same place I left you

please don't die today
please don't leave me with a body full of hate today
please come back for me today
but you are not

I see everything flying around
I see living things passing us by
I see you slip and fall again
I see you fai

Im closing the curtains now...
I don't think you'll be ever reaching home again
I don't feel we'll be ever reaching home today...

and I cant lead you there
not If you dont want me to
but it's just a waste of us
but it's just a waste of life

and as Im waiting for your soul to come around
and as Im waiting to feel joy once in a while
as Im waiting I feel I can barely stand
it is hard...
it is hard for you to come?

and we are the only ones who seem to be appart
and we are the only ones that feel that we can leave without
and we are the only ones that are still crying tonight
and Im the only one who seems to know your heart

I can't hold you
I can't stand this anymore
I can't hold you
I can't choose you
not right now

and still you whisper
that you will never love again
you lose
and you will never try again
desires are trapped within your will
your need are locked away inside and still
your heart is in a cage
you deal with it
but your heart cant live inside a cage
you lie but still
your heart is within a cage
you say you swear is true
but still it is a cage...